Francis Chan, and Isaiah 55

I've seen this video a few times, and no matter how much I watch it I always react the same way.

Chills-Francis Chan has SUCH an amazing heart for God, and it's so evident in everything he does, especially this video.

Humbling-It really puts into perspective, just how small I am and how much I don't know (key point: will NEVER know) about who God is, and why He does the things he does.

Convicted-I ask myself the question, "What am I trying to make true in my life/with my theology/concerning my knowledge of God?" I find so many things and it just moves me to focus on the BIBLICAL truth, not my own selfish, HUMAN idea of truth.

This video continues to blow my mind, and I hope that I'll be able to come back to this blog post time and time again to feel these things and really reevaluate my relationship Truth.

Isaiah 55:8-9

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts

Marinate on THAT!!

1 Timothy 1:15

"...Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst."

SO AMAZING.

I love myself some Apostle Paul.

Looking to Luke 6:27-36

...To try to handle my pain the way Jesus would have

“But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.
“If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful."

Why?

Because I was God's enemy, and He forgave me. He rewarded me with salvation. The least I can do is try to follow that example with my enemies.

Thank You, Jesus

I've been in a pretty bad place lately, spiritually speaking.

Things have been going on in my life over the last month or so, hours have been longer and more rigorous at work, and I've just been extremely burnt out.

I wish I could go into detail about the struggles I've been dealing with, but they're better left unsaid.

Just know I've been in a standstill with my relationship with God, and in all honesty, I've been so exhausted that I haven't even felt bad about it.

Well, the last week or two has been extremely hard because it's all been brought to the surface; The spiritual halt, the exhaustion, the disrespect I've ignored, the CLUTTER, the anxiety, etc.. It's almost like it all just slapped me in the face, and all of a sudden I've just felt so awful! The worst part hasn't even been the fact that things have been affecting ME negatively, but that I've been NEGLECTING God.

Who do I think I am to just turn my face away from God and concern myself with my "troubles?"

So today I finally put it to an end. I went out, turned off my phone, and just worshipped Jesus.

I wrote, and prayed, and listened to worship songs.. But most importantly I vowed to bring myself back to the One constant in my life.



So Jesus,

You are such a beautiful, caring God. I am so undeserving of your unconditional love that you continue to pour out to me. I turned away from you in order to receive glory for myself, and You still welcomed me back with open arms.

I love You so much Jesus, and pray that I can not only show others my love for You, but show You just how much I love You by bringing You glory in everything I do. I can't do anything without You Jesus, and I was an absolute fool for thinking I could.

You amaze me everyday.

Love,
The lost, and broken girl who loves You more than she's been showing lately.

Love this song. Love them.

Where You Invest Your Love, You Invest Your Life.

It's funny how little things can be really hurtful. Small things can make you feel unappreciated, unworthy, overlooked, guilty, embarrassed, sad, and even angry at times. They can change relationships with people, and make you re-evaluate certain motives.

As miserable as those emotions can make you feel, they mean nothing compared to love you receive from God.

So I know that no matter how I'm feeling right now, God loves me no matter what. His grace is the most amazing and consistent gift any human can receive. I'm humbled by his unconditional love towards me, the messed-up being that I am.

Life's busy, but good! Stressful and tiring, but I'm finding strength and comfort in my God :)

Walls

I don't really like walls, but I'm learning that they're needed... In certain cases.

I set a goal a few months ago to be less "transparent" and I don't know if I've really been successful with that, especially because of circumstances that pretty much immediately followed that. But because of those exact circumstances, I am devoting myself to getting back on track to being less transparent, and the new addition: WALLS

I've never been good at putting them up, but here's to trying.