Failure.

Being a new believer is tough, but I wasn't quite aware of that until recently. My old self had many struggles that my new self would never even think twice about, but God has made me notice a past struggle that seems to be trying to creep it's way back into my life: The fear of failure.

Lately, I've been so afraid of failing and of what other people think that I've been holding myself back.

I stayed here (in Fresno) in order to try new ministry opportunities that cause me to step outside of my comfort zone, and here I am taking steps backwards just because I'm afraid of doing something wrong.

Someone once told me that the best advice they ever got was,

"You are going to fail so stop trying not to. God is big enough to use our failures for greatness."

So why am I so afraid of failing?

Any reason I come up with isn't good enough. God doesn't care if I succeed or fail because I'm at least making an attempt, and an effort to glorify Him.

I'm stepping back out of my comfort zone, risking humiliation and failure, because not only will He make something great out of it, but because He's worth it.

"Let me hear of Your unfailing love each morning,
for I am trusting You.
Show me where to walk,
for I give myself to You"
-Psalm 143:8

"Father Let My Heart Be After You"

This song is so amazing. Just let the lyrics sink in..

Garden by needtobreathe:

Won't you take this cup from me
Cause fear has stolen all my sleep
If tomorrow means my death
Pray you'll save their souls with it

Let the songs I sing bring joy to you
Let the words I say confess my love
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune
Father let my heart be after you

In this hour of doubt I see
Who I am is not just me
So give me strength to die myself
So love can live to tell the tale

Let the songs I sing bring joy to you
Let the words I say confess my love
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune

Father let my heart be after you

Father let my heart be
For you
For you
For you
For you

Let the songs I sing bring joy to you
Let the words I say confess my love
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune
Father let my heart be after you

Father let my heart be after you

Dear God,

Staying here was probably the best thing for me. The insecurities and small amounts of discouragement I've felt are nothing to how happy I am in the place that YOU have led me to. You know, I don't even understand how I could EVER be worthy of any of this, but that's just how great You are! Things that You do are so big, that we, as humans, can't even imagine them! You are worthy of so much love and glory that I hope I can give you as much as humanly possible.

THANK YOOOUUUUUU!

Forever Yours,
Tayler